Some random thoughts!!

Today,my mind is going round and round thinking about what is happening in this world,in my country and in my state. I know I dont have solutions,but I do know someone who has. I pray that someday he will give me the privilege to do something for the least of these,my brothers. I dont claim to know everything but there are things in my head... constructions out of the bricks of little bits and pieces of information I have gathered over the years from conversations with people,newspaper and magazine articles and most of all,from my observations. I am a nut-case. I just like to think that someday I will be able to make a difference for the poor and the suffering in this world.

I remember something Pa Dina (Kimi's dad) told me some time ago,well before he died. He said to me,"Tluangi,you must'nt do the right thing only because you think,if I do the right thing,GOD will bless me and my family, or if I do the right thing, I will have something to gain, DO THE RIGHT THING BECAUSE IT IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO". It was a strong statement and I dont think I will ever forget it. I believe he was someone who was not afraid to suffer for the right reasons. I deeply admire him and I believe his death is a huge loss for our community.

I think as long as we not afraid to suffer, be poor, be looked down upon because we want to do what is right in GOD's eyes,we can never be corrupt ...(in all senses). I believe that GOD sees us,our hearts,our intentions and he responds to us in a way that is the best for us because he loves us. What is right in GOD's eyes? I am still looking for more answers. Definitely, greed and sexual immorality is wrong in GOD's eyes. Pride,selfish ambitions, lies, anger, malice, idolatry.. the list goes on... I realized I am not passionate enough to find out if what I am doing is right in GOD's eyes. Every little thing.

We need to be people who are not afraid to fall. We need to be people who are not afraid to embrace their humanity and the fact that we are only humans,we fall, we sin and maim Jesus's image every now and then. We need to be people who dont use the term Christian as a tag,but truly have the heart and mind of Christ. We need to be Christians who do fall,who stray right and left,but always, rise up and start again. Our judge is not this world, but Christ. I dont think I am wrong in saying this.

There was nothing fair about the cross. Justice is a scary word. Jesus doesnt use these terms to deal with me or anybody else, he speaks GRACE and MERCY. Is that fair if you consider the sins I've committed? No,its not. But,its true.

I am bonkers,I know. I am not an intellectual. I cant think straight for a moment. I cant say for sure,honestly,if I can truly say to Jesus, I love you. I admitted this to my bible teacher one time,and he told me,I think Jesus will appreciate your honesty...hmmm... got me thinking..
He loves me for sure.. and I think the right thing for me or for anyone to do,is to keep on walking in this journey,we've not yet reached perfection, we will someday,and just keep discovering the joy of knowing Christ. There will come a point where I will fall in love with him.